Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Happy 5 Months

Happy 5 month birthday Brooks.

Some anniversary dates have been hard and some have been like any other day. 5 months has been a hard day. I'm not sure why this one has stuck out, but my heart has been heavy today. It started with a little wake up in the middle of the night and who knows why, but the date struck me down like a lightening bolt. I realized what today 'should have' looked like and I spent the next hour or so crying and thinking. And missing. And longing. I slept a little longer till the alarm went off and the tears came again. I haven't had a day where I break down a lot in a long time so I suppose I was due.

No profound words here. Just missing our sweet boy. Thank you for any prayers of strength and peace that offered up today.

11 comments:

Beth Goff said...

I think of you OFTEN! I am praying for you!! I am glad you got to see Natalie while she was in town. Natalie said it was so much fun seeing everyone.

Daddy's Dream ~Mommy's Miracle said...

You and other moms who have lost their children are always in my prayers!!

Rachael Walkup said...

love you Ashly...praying for you always!

jennifer said...

oh ashly, my heart is just so heavy for you. thinking about you and praying, praying, praying.
i wanted to leave you my email.
jennifer.willis@gmail.com

Tonya said...

Praying for you.....

Love,
Tonya

Stacy D said...

Still praying for you... thinking of you guys nad yoru sweet Brooks so often...

Shannon said...

Ashly,

I noticed that Denny updated his facebook profile today and included this blog site. The name of it was cute and peaked my interest so I came to look at it and see what has been going on with you and Denny since the days of seeing you out at the Silverbacks soccer fields and words can't even describe how sorry I am to hear about what you guys have been through and are still going through. You are a brave person to bare your soul about this to so many people. I wish both of you the best in continuing to heal your broken hearts.

Shannon said...

It took me a while today to figure out how to post a comment here and the above comment is from me - only I didn't realize it had posted before I changed my display name.

Ebe said...

Praying for you, Ashly.
My heart aches with yours tonight.

Anonymous said...

hi Ashley - a friend of katie g's here - look at psalm 13 - it starts with lamenting and ends with a praise of God's enduring love - my fave. it is a hard time for me right now too as my twins would have been born this week. I think of you often - Kate catherineshearne@yahoo.com

Anonymous said...

Praying for you. Always.